words cannot express my love for everly, and how proud I am to be her mama everyday.
and then you find out that her dream goal of becoming clara for her ballet studio's production of the nutcracker and it really all comes full circle.
this was the year she was clara.
well, I survived.
an entire year of teaching on a computer screen. with a little hybrid/in-person mixed in the last 3 months of the school year.
maybe one day I will write down those feelings, but right now, I'm just looking forward.
yesterday we visited the oakland zoo with friends, and it marked the last day of mandated mask wearing in our state. now most places are still requiring masks for children until they can be vaccinated, so we shall see how much I really ditch the mask in the coming days.
but for now, just happy moments with little people.
well, if there is just a perfect way to end 2020, cancel the nutcracker ballet, replace it with a 'winter ball' streamed on Zoom. sounds about right.
all sarcasm aside, I was so thankful to give everly this chance to perform. this chance to feel like just one little piece of her life is normal, when really, nothing else is.
school is still online, indefinitely.
she still cannot see any of her friends, unless it is on an ipad screen.
our holiday plans are getting slimmer by the minute.
and she's still grieving not having her grandma here with us anymore.
so to say I'm feeling hopeful for a new year, that is the understatement of the century. 
